Real life is to depressin,Struggles I’m facin got me stressin,
Felt like she was a blessin,
Now it seems she was nothing more than a lesson,
Really wanted it to work out,
But it feels like too many kinks to work out,
They told me ride the wave,
But it turned to a tsunami,
Had feel so confused and distracted,
Makes me wanna grab the glock,
Letting off a 100 shots,
Talking all that shit but they don’t wanna pop off,
Knowing if I get that mood a nigga would get hauled off,
I’m jumping off the deep end,
Might just disappear for eternity,
Niggas make me feel like I ain’t earn my keep,
Lotta favors on both ends,
Make me feel like it’s coming to a closing,
The end,
Family Fallin out over money and women,
I thought it was supposed to be blood over bitches,
But that’s not how it’s turnin out,
I guess she got u turned out,
I’ll make it with the help of God,
He will hold me down when everyone else is acting fraud,
Cause everyone does at one time or another,
Even though some more than others,
Fake friends round my way keep em all at arms length,
But I have to give my all then borrow some of Gods strength,
Because I feel exhausted,
It’s exhausting,
Walk a couple miles in my shoes,
Even if they fit bet u can’t take more than a few steps,
My life has been a movie,
One of those gangster types,
Lots of pain an anguish,
Trying to be holy but knowin I’m tainted,
Feeling like I’m to far gone to truly make a comeback,
Got me ready to attack if you step on my toes,
U wouldn’t get my life,
It’s been a different type,
Bits and pieces may sink in,
But as a collective whole,
U couldn’t even gather up half the toll,
That had to be paid,
Take slight comfort In the fact Jesus can understand because on the cross he took on my sin,
I don’t even know where to begin with that,
It’s amazing and only justifiable by the fact that he loves me,
But I still feel like I’m alone,
That’s me under attack by the devil,
He’s mad that I switched sides that the truth,
And when I preach to you its to me too,
Trying to find a method to cope,
That isn’t hoes, or dope,
Trying to be holy isn’t as easy as being a gangster,
But I’d like to thank you for all the bad looks,
When I came through making folks shook,
Or shake their heads in disapproval,
You can’t have a wrong without a right,
Or a right without a wrong,
Trying to hold on,
Being strong isn’t something to do for fun,
It’s something for survival,
Survival of the fittest in all aspects,
To gain respect of men through foolish things was a goal,
But that whole acting dumb got old,