Off In The Trenches

Lately I have been off back in that life just short of the drug’s. I have been drinking here and there nothing constantly though. It’s beginning to weigh on me that I truly don’t know myself besides the fact I do a lot of messed up things. I’ve recently hit 18, and I’ll tell you, you can’t get a good job with drug’s in your system. Very few care if you fuck multiple women every week though. I find the more I try to grow up the more I start to progress into the bad things faster and faster. As if to go head first in to the things of this world accepting it as it’s all I can get. Knowing that there are certain rules that you have to follow in life to make it to heaven. Now I won’t go all Jesus freak on you, but I do believe in an all-powerful God that loves us, and punishes us. In that I do feel there are certain things you must do and I feel more allowing the further I stray away. It’s sad really I don’t know how explain it, but I can say that I feel as if I’m off in the trenches. By in the trenches I mean like waging war on my soul, body, and the world. It’s tough where I’m at. You have to be strong to survive, and well if you’re not you don’t survive. You can just hit restart in life, you don’t get a do over, and every move you make needs to be the best you can make. A bad split second decision can stick with you for life. I’ve been making subpar decisions in my life, and I have to start makings up for them now.

White Privilege

Im getting tired of hearing this horse crap. White privilege is an excuse to why you’re not doing well in life. It couldn’t be the fact that u aren’t giving it ur all trying to find a job or at least side work. My dads white over 100 criminal allegations on record with 30 felony convictions. Can’t get a job working at goodwill as the door greeter where they hire mentally retarded folks. Guess what he went and did hard labor long enough to get money to get some shirts made. He sold em and he will be opening a non profit organization for it. Slowly but surely it will be big one day. He tried to pull his white privilege card at goodwill it didn’t work. 😂Now let’s get to the fun part. Obama, Michael Jordan, Michael Jackson and the rest of the 5, Al Green, Bill Withers, Luther Vandross, R Kelly, ludacris, lil Wayne, Kanye, project pat, biggie, pac, nas, eazy e, Kobe, lebron, AP, Michael Vick, Cam, tiger woods, jessi Jackson, Cuba Gooding Jr., eddy griffin, the late great Bernie Mac, eddy Murphy, that midget from Friday and bad Santa, Chris tucker, that one guy from Friday and the green mile, debo, deon sanders, and many many more. Which one of them made excuses none. Pick up your nut and get to working.